Misunderstood

I like to shower my friends with compliments. My closest ones.
I tell them how nice they look.
I tell them how well they'll do in life.
I tell them how much I care.
I will do anything to make them feel better.
Even if it means I have to constantly be there.
Be out of my walls.

I'm not one of those friends who send you tons of emoticons.

Though definitely will tell you I miss you.

But, no I'm not going to be handy.
I don't always reply your chat immediately.
I know you know I have read your chat, don't always pick up the phone.
I suck.

Yet, I don't shower my family with compliments.
I don't tell my mom how strong and beautiful she is.
I don't tell my dad that he's good father though certainly not a friendly one.

Hahaha.

I'm not even sure my siblings want me in the pack cause most of the time, they have their world. Not that I need to be in it really.

I'll always be in my bubble.
I don't tell my nanny how grateful I am to have her since I was just a mold of meat that cried.

To be honest I'm scared,
Cause I think I have more time.
Not because they're growing old we're growing apart.
What if I'm the one who's running out of time?

Instead, if I love you I'll say:
"Stop being stupid. Why are you such an idiot?"
"You know what, if you keep that attitude, one day everyone will stop looking out for you!"
"Yeah, old man. The reason why you louder your voice is because you're scared because I'm right. You're not Jesus or Muhammad. You're not always right."
"*name every uncivilized word*! *swears*! *swears*! Okay, I'm good it's okay. Let's eat." when my best friend told me she had an affair with my ex.
"Have a safe trip"
"Hoax. Don't read it"
"Stop defending her. She was just using you, cause you're stupid and you're nice."
"Are you okay? Okay."
"I'll see you soon"

What a very short life we have here.